One of the things I hate the most is the waste of my life. Right now, I feel like I've wasted part of my day. Maybe it was because the movie I just watched was boring, and I kept watching it. I'm not sure. Wasting time is a funny thing. I feel more guilty about other sins. I feel more angry about other sins. I think I just hate it so much because I have lost something that I can't get back. I realize that I only have one life to live here and I'm probably already at least 1/3 of the way through. And I know I'll probably spend 1/3 of the rest of my life sleeping.

Maybe this is why I like to keep my schedule busy. It's hard for me to have free time and not waste it all away. Today, I did work for 8 1/2 hours. I did work out. I did read my Bible and pray a little. I did watch a sermon and read some. But I also watched approx. 4 hours of TV. That's just too much. I don't watch many movies anymore. TV is one of those things that feels like it robs me of Jesus. Not all the time, but sometimes I feel depressed after too much TV. I feel depressed because I know I've missed out on something so much better. I have this intense feeling like I wish I had spent those hours praying. Which will matter more in the end?

Matt Chandler wrote a blog once talking about the things that stir is affection for Jesus and the things that rob him of Jesus. At the end of his blog, he made a list. I think I'll do the same.

Things that I feel draw me closer to God (aside from obvious prayer, Bible, etc.):
1. Spending time with fellow believers (my close friends from church or new ones that I've just met)
2. Shutting off all electronics, getting away from people, and just sitting in silence
3. Hard work
4. Sermons by Piper, Chandler, or Begg
5. Learning about other people

Things that I feel rob me of Jesus (aside from obvious sins):
1. Too much TV or Internet surfing
2. Too much sleep
3. Meaningless Conversations
4. Daydreaming about things I should entrust to God

That's all I can think of for now. So, I end reminding myself to be a good steward of what God gives me. I remind myself to also trust in the joy and grace of God. It's amazing how He loves me still. He delights in giving me good gifts. I thank God that He is so wonderful.